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gemma louise is the name.
16 years of age.
WELL I DUNNO WHY I BOTHER WRITIN DIS SHIT WEN NOWUN GIVES THA TIME OF DAY 2READ IT BUH STILL..WUD B NICE.
well im comin up for 17 in december.. currently in my first year of 6th form studying english literature, media & sociology. i have a part time job at a hotel (: aint 2bad. i believe that all my past experiences have made me who i am now; whether u like it or not i dunooo; can't exactly change it. im jus me and thas all im tryna be atm. i am fukin off my head crazy wen im close 2sumwun; i cant help it, i juss let loooose. its fukin funnnny tho (: i love people that are jus crazyyy with me, loooove it. i kan be quite depressive sometimes; think its due to the fact that i think too deeply and keep goin over things in my head, prob think rele negative sometimes which rele brings my mood down.. das anuva ting i have to stoppp doing; i wind myself up. i am one of the most up and down people u kan meet sometimes, i cant hellllp it.. blame my motherrrrrr! (: i kan be quite a shy girl; you have to rele be close for me in order for me to rele open up 2u, its complicated, buh uno if ur my friend ur gunna be my friend for lifeee. i hate fake friends that jus chat 2u for the sake of it.. why bother. i don't rele care if people hate me.. im used to it and i rele dont care about them anymore; ive grown up and u lot are the last thing on my mind. im jus livin my life; well trying as hard as i kan due to the age limit.. grrrrr. i jus wannnna go clubbbin, go abroard with my gd friends and jus make memories that im gunna remember 4ever. i think 2deeply sometimes, i prob care about people more than they care about me by the seems of it, i'm trying to detach myself from some people cos they just make me be a nasty person; such as the ex, and obv. i dnt wana be like that. despite that i am a caring person and i am up for a laughh. i kan be so gullible, and trust people 2easy, who then thro it bak in my face; i need to stop that. i hate it wen u tel people things then wen ur havin an argument they use it against you!! i read my star sign 2much and aktulee get happy if it says what i want it 2say.. haha i am sad buh stil.. a girl can dreammmm. that seems 2b all im doin lately.. dreamin of my future!! i dont wana grow up & get all tha responsibility and be all matureeee, spose we all gota do it, buh dis age does have its positive points (: i think im quite a wise person tbh.. sounds stupid buh i feel like ive been on dis planet b4 man.. ive jus got so many thoughts in dis head. i have a biiig interest in life and death convoss, cant remember the word 4it, im losttttt: it jus interests me so much, all dis stuff bout what happens afta death and tht.. duno y im writin disssss mannnn. foooook. i havee the mostttt truly amazing memories that just bring the fattest smile 2my face..thasa gd feeling. altho, lifes annoyin at the moment; at dat stupid age where theres so much i wana go & do buh stil under my parents rules which does my headdddd in! i crave freedom soo bad. i just need to get outta stevenage; i hate tha placeee. i hope im gonna go and live abroad someday; somewhere hot like cyprus or spain (: this country is crrrrap.. i can't wait til i start drivin; im gonna be goin evrywher n anywher.. u watch. this is loooooooong ahaa.
if you can't figure out who i am from this crap; seem a bit all over the place maybe.. yeh me neither.. don't even kno myself properlyy yet. gimme a break im stil 16.
i enjoy goin shoppin obviously; spending the money ive earnt myself feels gdd. spendin time with people i care about is an obvious wun buht stil.. i loooove dancin altho i havnt danced properly ina while; which i misss ): i loooove music 2much, think i get that offf my mum.. will listen to anyfing rele, open minded. i have an obsession with takin fotos, wetha its of myself or with othersss; i love photography and i like capturin the moment. id love to be a photographer not that its ever gonna happen buh still.. il dream onnnnn. i luvittt wen u jus reminise bout the old dayss and look bak on all the memories; good & bad and juss laugh.. lookin at old pikss always puts me ina good mood (:
boys: well i'ma bit fed up with boys atm.. you always think you've found wun that is worth it then they end up doing somethin that makes you wonder if he rele is worth it. relationships r 2complicated mannn. i just wana find that decent boy that aint gonna play no games with u, is just open and strate with u instead of telling u lies and xpectin u to figure out things 4urself. i jus wana be cared about genuwinely at the end of the day. i hate it wen i get attached to sumwun that ikno is no good for me and ikno dey'r gonna hurt me buht i carry on nevertheless.. and get fukddd; head wise. gaaahd show me theres decent wuns out thereeeeee pls ?
THIS IS A BLADDDDY ESSAY.. (:
TELLLL ME THE MEANING OF LIFEEEE! ID APPRECIATE ITTTT.
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